31st..stupid day..

I hate 31st of December..You know why? Because when a new year come..I have to think back what I have been doing whole year and..you know what? I can't remember doing anything significant..

Imsomnia..I wish I have one..I getting a little tired of sleeping..

I still can't get over my problem..although I'm feeling better but the problem is still there..UNSOLVED..

I'm getting tired of everything..

And so..

I've made my decision..

To moderate everything and anything..

You don't understand?

Moderation..

Not happy..yet not sad..

Not angry..yet not satisfied..

Not pain..yet not comfortable..

Not hate..yet not love..

Not caring..yet not ignoring..

Not expensive..yet not cheap..

Not talkative..yet not quiet..

Not awake..yet not sleeping..


Do you understand? Or do you not?

Whoa! What are we doing??

Oh my Oh my..I just woke up..You know why? I didn't sleep..as well as May, Bernard and Yuki..We're downstairs all night long..We're waiting for May to do the Chapter 5 questions..Intergration..But..At about 3am I can't continue..left Bernard and May trying to figure out on how to solve the question..as well as Yuki trying to understand and finish his one..As for me..I'm playing with May's laptop..searching for songs..trying to figure out how to get connected..EP line SUCKS!

Yuki bought some Oreo biscuits down..We're so hungry..So eat Oreo to hold on..

Until about 4.30am I'm typing craps on the laptop..You want to know what i typed? Haha..maybe later I'll post it..I've saved it on May's laptop..The craps were basically about me being boring trying to kill time..discussed about some things..

At 6..finally..everyone's VERY hungry..So we went to have dim sum..later we saw BK with his friends..hmm..he seemed to be very busy..never see him in class but somehow..I think he's leading a healthy life (???)..I mean he waking up so early and having breakfast..Anyway..we sat there and have some dim sum and porridge..Then talked mostly crap..

Then We walked to the market nearby..We wanted to see May's "cousin"..haha..Then there's some drizzle..and so we went back to EP..The security guard was sleeping SO SOUNDLY..very funny..I should've take down the photo of him sleeping..haha..

Anyway..I slept in like..less then 2 minutes from the moment I lie down on my warm bed..


^_^"..

To get over my sadness...

After class I went back to Ep to have a nap..I'm trying to forget my problems..Haha..I really felt better after the nap..which was a long one..about 3 hours i guess..^_^"

Later I tried to do the calculus assignment..Wah lao..I really don't know how to do..but..I tried anyway..Remember what I said? I'll not give up just yet..haha..^_^"..

Have dinner with housemates..It's been a while since I've any dinner with my housemates 'cause of Rommel and May..Almost every dinner is either "Da Bao" or at MMU Cormer with both of them..Haha..One of my housemate, "Dai Lou" is not as unapproachable as I thought..But..I'm stereotyping..again..huhu...

Chat a lot of things with him as well as other housemates..mostly about games..haha..Boring topic right? Not to us..

Until about 8.30pm suddenly received a call from Chee Kah (President of COS)..Oh my..I forgot that there's a meeting!!! But..What the hell..I'm late anyway..so..continue to enjoy my dinner...^_^"..

At the meeting..hmm..How Should I describe it? Boring? Yeah..Oh man..It seems that the camp has not enough participants..and so..we're there trying to figure out a way to get more people to join the camp..which I think is futile..

At 10 May called..So..Went downstairs and continue my assignment there..Until now..I'm typing this article with May's laptop..Haha..It feels weird typing with a laptop..It just feels..not right..

Have to go back to work..Still got 2 chapters to do..^_^"..

Sad day...

Hmm..Woke up depressed..because I've not kept my promise to myself..You can say I'm mad of myself..Nevermind..Then I'm off to school..I think of a new start..But..When teacher mentioned about the midterm result..My heart sank..again..It's not a rare moment anymore of me sinking deep down into unknown depth..

Haha..It's life..and life's full of dissapointment..wether you like it or not..

Nevertheless..There's still 2 weeks of study...I should not give up just yet...Going to start my marathon soon..^_^..Hoping to cover up some of my mistakes..I hope...

Thank you..my friends who leave me alone..If they kept bugging me I may do something stupid..

^_^"..Ding!!

Back To Melaka..

I just came back from Hometown..and my head is trying to crack itself..got a bad headache..maybe i did not slept well on the bus..anyway..i'm feeling better now compared to how i felt when i'm on the bus..

Before benny and i board the bus my father was like so nervous about it..i mean the bus..and i thought,what to worry about? the bus can't be running away since we arrived at the station early..well..i think every parents tend to think for their kids instead of letting them go..haha..

Well..I'm back..Everything's back on track?? I hope so..加油！！

At hometown..

Back at hometown..I didn't sleep..Turn on my pc and surfing net..Somehow..i can't sleep..maybe i slept too much on the bus..

At 7am, i went to taiping with my parents..'cause my parents wanted to fetch some students to the driving school..so..i went along..haha..i can drive that Innova..^_^"..

Then after settling all their works we went to the bus station there and bought tickets back to Melaka..

By afternoon i went out with chia wei to parit buntar..with the innova..hehe..heavy rain..we're searching for presents for the party..the plan is that at the end of the party there'll be an exchange of presents..so..everybody have to buy their own presents..

we ate "Tu Bak Hun"..that is..猪肉粉..a little weird the taste..But..still..very delicious..If you're an "animal lover"..^_^"

Chia Wei bought a glass-shaped pig..while i bought a square-sized glass with the zodiac on it..Leo for my own..another Aries..for a friend..^_^"..

I was so tired..and i slept for a while while watching TV..I can't seem to get attracted to tv anymore except as a time killer..

At the party..whoa..we're having steamboat..nice..after having steamboat i have a very nice conversation with my old friends..feeling nolstagic..yet strange as things've changed a lot since a very long time ago..haha..

By 11.40pm I phone May..she's all alone in her home..so..I phoned her and spend some time talking with her..until 12..haha..nice conversation..

later we played some trivia games...I'm not explaining what games we're playing 'cause it's too complicated to be explained here..except for one..which everyone has to choose a small roll of notes among many..and to do whatever the notes tell you to..that is..if the instruction is to want you to act as a dog..then..unfortunately..you have to..one friend has to eat a mouthful of Chilli sauce..omg..the other has to act as a tortoise!!haha..

We played until about 2.30am..then..everyone was tired..and we headed home..so tired..overall..nice x'mas party..

The trip back to hometown..

Phew...the trip back to bagan serai was..exciting? lucky? Coz benny and I went to KL..he wanted to buy x'mas presents..but we're stucked in a traffic jam..we reached KL from Melaka in..3 HOURS!!!! Oh man..I'm going to go insane!!

After stopping at Pudu Raya..we with our bulky bags ran like we're in The Amazing Race..Haha..running around trying to get the next ticket to the next destination..haha..In our case we're trying to get back HOME!

The whole station was very packed..so many people..especially at the ticket counters..there was rows of rows of different bus companies..We tried to buy the tickets from Transnational..But..Sold out..Then we tried our luck with other companies..They only gave us one response: "No more ticket..Habis.."

OH NO! I looked at Benny..Benny looked at me..what are we going to do??!! No more ticket!! Luckily..we heard a bus operator shoutting :" Taiping!! Taiping!! Taiping Sembilan Tengah!!(9.30om)" Then we quickly rushed towards him..then we saw a counter..then..FINALLY!! There's tickets going north!! We quickly asked for 2 tickets back to Bagan Serai..only to be shocked again..The tickets cost RM28!! That's more expensive then normal price by RM10!!! But we can't do anything since every other counter's ticket were sold out..so..we bought it..with heavy hearts..

After buying the tickets..we quickly rushed to a gift shop..inside was full of x'mas presents and accesories..Benny bought a glass apple with a x'mas cap for girls..hmm..he's buying them for a girl..obviously..and i just know who's the girl he's going to give his presents to...

Next stop ==> KFC! We stop by at a small kfc shop by the road near Petaling Street..It's a little contrast..The KFC by the main road was packed like a sardin dish..but in this KFC there's like..no one inside..haha..lucky..we're worrying that we're going to queue for another 15 minutes again..Only by then we got the time to relax and settle down..

After eating nuggets and wedges we kept our zinger burgers for the trip..Then we head off to Pudu Raya for our bus..Again..we waited for the buss for like..an hour..Oh My God!! By the time we saw our bus..my heart sank again..it's a Bas Pekerja..(Workers' bus)..not the standard express bus..

There's no relieve in this!! I was so down I went numb..not happy..yet not sad..Maybe I'm tired or something..The bus only started the journey after we waited in the bus for 30 minutes..they're waiting for extra passengers..

I slept in the bus..benny was surprised that I can sleep inside the bus..I was so tired..

I slept until we stopped at Ipoh..Then I slept again..until we reached taiping..then..finally..Bagan Serai..as I stepped down onto bagan serai ground everything's familiar again to me..the air of it..the feel of it..It's all coming back to me now..

As we're walking back to my house..I saw stars..bright, shinning stars..the last time I saw them was a very long time ago..'cause i'm too busy in many things I missed it out..Somehow..At time I wished Someone would also see those beautiful stars..haha..

Finally..my home..

Well..I'm back..

Ah..Leo?

I did badly on my test..ah..can only blame myself..hmm..tomorrow still got another test..physics..

I found out that to succeed you have to do more work then others..what i did..was to follow others..hmm..I'm Leo..Am I a leader or a follower? Hmm..

30 minutes before midterm..

Oh no..half and hour more before my midterm test..I'm nervous..

Midterm..

Oh my...i barely study for the midterm!! Played moo moo instead with housemates...i really have a very weak dicipline...I'll surely suck in this midterm..T_T..

I'm thinking of writting a letter..a letter to someone...will this be a beginning of a whole new experience?? I think it would..

I'm going back to my home town this friday after the physics midterm test..I can see my family..miss them so much...and so are my friends..they're having bbq on christmas eve..^_^"..

The most important point of going back home..haha..is to be able to drive my mom's new car..huhu..i just spend like half an hour driving it when it first arrived..then the next thing was i was back in Melaka..haha..

Midterm countdown: 9 hours 25 minutes..

Chirstmas's coming..and so do the midterms...

Having my midterm tomorrow..and i think i'll sucks in it..if i can just pass then i'll be very very glad..it's THAT worst of my preparation..i'm just wishing it to be a pass..

Finally..I've lost my sanity..How fragile love is..how fragile..Hmm..Do I have to tell her that i ONCE love her? Of course not! What's the point in telling someone that you love her..which was a long long time ago?? But somewhere in my heart tells me that i should tell her...at least let her know how beautiful she was to me..

What Should I do??

琵琶行。。解释。。

琵琶行》作于唐宪宗元和十一年（公元816年）秋，时白居易四十五岁，任江州司马。白居易在元和十年以前先是任左拾遗，后又任左赞善大夫。元和十年六月，唐朝藩镇势力派刺客在长安街头刺死了宰相武元衡，刺伤了御史中丞裴度，朝野大哗。藩镇势力在朝中的代言人又进一步提出要求罢免裴度，以安藩镇的“反侧”之心。这时白居易挺身而出，坚决主张讨贼，认为否则国将不国。白居易这种主张本来是对的，但因为他平素写讽喻诗得罪了许多朝廷的权贵，于是有人就说他官小位卑，擅越职分。再加上有人给他罗织罪名，于是贬之为江州司马。江州的州治在今江西省九江市。司马是刺史的助手，听起来也像是不错，但实际上在中唐时期这个职位是专门安置“犯罪”官员的，是变相发配到某地去接受监督看管的。这件事对白居易影响很大，是他思想变化的转折点，从此他早期的斗争锐气逐渐销磨，消极情绪日渐其多。

　　《琵琶行》作于他贬官到江州的第二年，作品借着叙述琵琶女的高超演技和她的凄凉身世，抒发了作者个人政治上受打击、遭贬斥的抑郁悲凄之情。在这里，诗人把一个倡女视为自己的风尘知己，与她同病相怜，写人写己，哭己哭人，宦海的浮沉、生命的悲哀，全部融和为一体，因而使作品具有不同寻常的感染力。 　　
诗前的小序介绍了长诗所述故事发生的时间、地点以及琵琶女其人，和作者写作此诗的缘起，实际上它已经简单地概括了后面长诗的基本内容。左迁：指降职、贬官。湓浦口：湓水与长江的汇口，在今九江市西。京都声：首都长安的韵味，一方面指曲调的地域特征，一方面也是指演技高超，非一般地方所有。善才：唐代用以称琵琶演奏家。命酒：派人整备酒宴。悯然，伤心的样子。恬然：安乐的样子。迁谪意：指被降职、被流放的悲哀。作者说他被贬到九江一年来，每天都很快乐，只有今天听了琵琶女的演奏，才勾起了他被流放的悲哀。这种说法是写文章的需要，读者当然不会相信他。长句：指七言古诗。

　　《琵琶行》全诗共分四段，从“浔阳江头夜送客”到“犹抱琵琶半遮面”共十四句，为第一段，写琵琶女的出场。其中的前六句交代了时间，这是一个枫叶红、荻花黄、瑟瑟秋风下的夜晚；交代了地点，是浔阳江头。浔阳也就是今天的九江市；浔阳江头也就是前边序中所说的湓浦口。交代了背景，是诗人给他的朋友送别。离别本身就叫人不快，酒宴前再没有个歌女侍应，当然就更加显得寂寞难耐了。这里面“主人下马客在船”一句句法稍怪，其意思实际是主人陪着客人一道骑马来至江边，一同下马来到船上。“醉不成欢惨将别，别时茫茫江浸月”。这里的景色和气氛描写都很好，它给人一种空旷、寂寥、怅惘的感觉，和主人与客人的失意、伤别融合一体，构成一种强烈的压抑感，为下文的突然出现转机作了准备。其中蹬后八句是正面写琵琶女的出场：“忽闻水上琵琶声，主人忘归客不发”。声音从水面上飘过来，是来自船上，这声音一下子就吸引了主人和客人的注意，他们走的不想走、回的不想回了，他们一定要探寻探寻这种美妙声音的究竟。“寻声暗问弹者谁？琵琶声停欲语迟。移船相近邀相见，添酒回灯重开宴。千呼万唤始出来，犹抱琵琶半遮面。”这里的描写非常细致。由于这时是夜间，又由于他们听到的只是一种声音，他们不知道这声音究竟来自何处，也不知演奏者究竟是什么人，所以这里的“寻声暗问”四个字传神极了。接着“琵琶声停”表明演奏者已经听到了来人的呼问；“欲语迟”与后面的“千呼万唤始出来，犹抱琵琶半遮面”相一致，都表明这位演奏者的心灰意懒，和惭愧自己身世的沉沦，她已经不愿意再抛头露面了。这段琵琶女出场过程的描写历历动人，她未见其人先闻其琵琶声，未闻其语先已微露其内心之隐痛，为后面的故事发展造成许多悬念。 　　
从“转轴拨弦三两声”到“唯见江心秋月白”共二十二句为第二段，写琵琶女的高超演技。其中“转轴拨弦三两声”，是写正式演奏前的调弦试音；而后“弦弦掩抑”，写到曲调的悲伧；“低眉信手续续弹”，写到舒缓的行板。拢、捻、抹、挑，都是弹奏琵琶的手法。霓裳：即《霓裳羽衣曲》，唐朝宫廷中制作的一个舞曲名。六：当时流行的一个舞曲名。从“大弦嘈嘈如急雨”到“四弦一声如裂帛”共十四句，描写琵琶乐曲的音乐形象，写它由快速到缓慢、到细弱、到无声，到突然而起的疾风暴雨，再到最后一划，戛然而止，诗人在这里用了一系列的生动比喻，使比较抽象的音乐形象一下子变成了视觉形象。这里有落玉盘的大珠小珠，有流啭花间的间关莺语，有水流冰下的丝丝细细，有细到没有了的“此时无声胜有声”，有突然而起的银瓶乍裂、铁骑金戈，它使听者时而悲凄、时而舒缓、时而心旷神怡、时而又惊魂动魄。“东舟西舫悄无言，唯见江心秋月白。”这两句是写琵琶女的演奏效果。大家都听得入迷了，演奏已经结束，而听者尚沉浸在音乐的境界里，周围鸦雀无声，只有水中倒映着一轮明月。

　　从“沉吟放拨括弦中”到“梦啼妆泪红阑干”共二十四句为第三段，写琵琶女自述的身世，自述早年曾走红运，盛极一时，到后来年长色衰，飘零沦落。沉吟：踌躇，欲言又止的样子。敛容：指收起演奏时的情感，重新与人郑重见礼。虾蟆岭：即下马岭，汉代董仲舒的坟墓，在长安城东南部，临近曲江。从“十三学得琵琶成”以下十句极写此女昔日的红极一时。她年纪幼小，而技艺高超，她被老辈艺人所赞服，而被同辈艺人所妒忌。王孙公子迷恋她的色艺：为了请她演奏，而不惜花费重金；她自己也放纵奢华，从来不懂什么叫吝惜。就这样年复一年，好时光像水一样地很快流走了。

教坊：唐代管理宫廷乐队的官署。第一部：如同说第一团、第一队。秋娘：泛指当时貌美艺高的歌伎。五陵：指长陵、安陵、阳陵、茂陵、平陵五个汉代皇帝的陵墓，是当时富豪居住的地方。五陵年少：通常即指贵族子弟。缠头：指古代赏给歌舞女子的财礼，唐代用帛，后代用其他财物。红绡：一种生丝织物。钿头：两头装着花钿的发篦。云篦：指用金翠珠宝装点的首饰。击节：打拍子。歌舞时打拍子原本用木制或竹制的板，现在兴之所至，竟拿贵重的钿头云篦击节，极言其放纵奢华，忘乎所以。等闲：随随便便，不重视。

从“弟走从军阿姨死”以下十句写此女的时过境迁，飘零沦落。随着她的年长色衰，贵族子弟们都已经不再上门，她仅有的几个亲属也相继离散而去，她像一双过了时的鞋子，再也没人看、没人要了，无可奈何只好嫁给了一个商人。商人关心的是赚钱，从来不懂艺术和情感，他经常独自外出，而抛下这个可怜的女子留守空船。人是有记忆的，面对今天的孤独冷落，回想昔日的锦绣年华，对比之下，怎不让人伤痛欲绝呢！“夜深忽梦少年事，梦啼妆泪红阑干。”其实即使不作梦，也是一天不知要想多少遍的。浮梁：县名，县治在今江西景德镇北。红阑干：泪水融和脂粉流淌满面的样子。

　　从“我闻琵琶已叹息”到最后的“江州司马青衫湿”共二十六句为第四段，写诗人感慨自己的身世，抒发与琵琶女的同病相怜之情。唧唧：叹息声。“同是天涯沦落人，相逢何必曾相识。”二语感情浓厚，落千古失落者之泪，也为千古失落者触发了一见倾心之机。自“我从去年辞帝京”起以下十二句，写诗人贬官九江以来的孤独寂寞之感。他说：“浔阳地僻无音乐，终岁不闻丝竹声。住近湓江地低湿，黄芦苦竹绕宅生。其间旦暮闻何物？杜鹃啼血猿哀鸣。春江花朝秋月夜，往往取酒还独倾。岂无山歌与村笛，呕哑嘲哳难为听。”地势荒僻，环境恶劣，举目伤怀，一点开心解闷的东西都没有。

其实这在很大程度上都是由诗人自己的苦闷移情的结果，我们对比一下《水浒传》里宋江赞赏江州的一段话，他说：“端的好座江州，我虽犯罪远流到此，倒也看了真山真水。我那里虽有几座名山古迹，却无此等景致。”诗人的悲哀苦闷完全是由于他政治上受打击造成的，但是这点他没法说。他只是笼统含糊地说了他也是“天涯沦落人”，他是“谪居卧病” 于此，而其他断肠裂腑的伤痛就全被压到心底去了。这就是他耳闻目睹一切无不使人悲哀的缘由。接着他以一个平等真诚的朋友、一个患难知音的身份，由衷地称赞和感谢了琵琶女的精彩表演，并提出请她再弹一个曲子，而自己要为她写一首长诗《琵琶行》。琵琶女本来已经不愿意再多应酬，后来见到诗人如此真诚，如此动情，于是她紧弦定调，演奏了一支更为悲恻的曲子。这支曲子使得所有听者无不唏嘘成声。多情的诗人呢？看他的青衫前襟早巳经湿透了。促弦：紧弦，使调子升高。青衫：八、九品文官的服色，司马是从九品，所以穿青衫。 　

　这首诗的艺术性是很高的，其一，他把歌咏者与被歌咏者的思想感情融而为一，说你也是说我，说我也是说你，命运相同、息息相关。琵琶女叙述身世后，诗人以为他们“同是天涯沦落人”；诗人叙述身世后，琵琶女则“感我此言良久立”，琵琶女再弹一曲后，诗人则更是“江州司马青衫湿。”风尘知己，处处动人怜爱。

其二，诗中的写景物、写音乐，手段都极其高超，而且又都和写身世、抒悲慨紧密结合，气氛一致，使作品自始至终浸沉在一种悲凉哀怨的氛围里。

其三，作品的语言生动形象，具有很强的概括力，而且转关跳跃，简洁灵活，所以整首诗脍炙人口，极易背诵。诸如“千呼万唤始出来，犹抱琵琶半遮面”； “别有幽情暗恨生，此时无声胜有声”；“门前冷落车马稀，老大嫁作商人妇”；“夜深忽梦少年事，梦啼妆泪红阑干”；“同是天涯沦落人，相逢何必曾相识”，等等都是多么凝炼优美、多么叩人心扉的语句啊！

　　白居易本来就是一个关心下层人民，同情人民疾苦的诗人，这次他又用浅近流转的语言描写了一个动人怜惜的风尘女子形象。由于这首诗，白居易的名字也就更为家喻户晓、妇孺皆知了。三十年后唐宣宗在为白居易写的一首诗中说：“童子解吟《长恨》曲，胡儿能唱《琵琶》篇。”连少数民族的儿童都能背诵，稍有文化的汉族人就更不用说了。　

琵琶行

　　琵琶行

　　序

　　元和十年，予左迁九江郡司马。明年秋，送客湓浦口，闻舟中夜弹琵琶者。听其音，铮铮然有 京都声。问其人，本长安倡女，尝学琵琶于穆、曹二善才；年长色衰，委身为贾人妇。遂命酒，使快弹数曲，曲罢，悯然。自叙少小时欢乐事，今漂沦憔悴，转徙于 江湖间。予出官二年，恬然自安，感斯人言，是夕始觉有迁谪意。因为长句，歌以赠之。凡六百一十六言，命曰《琵琶行》。

　　浔阳江头夜送客，枫叶荻花秋瑟瑟。

　　主人下马客在船，举酒欲饮无管弦。

　　醉不成欢惨将别，别时茫茫江浸月。

　　忽闻水上琵琶声，主人忘归客不发。

　　寻声暗问弹者谁？琵琶声停欲语迟。

　　移船相近邀相见，添酒回灯重开宴。

　　千呼万唤始出来，犹抱琵琶半遮面。

　　转轴拨弦三两声，未成曲调先有情。

　　弦弦掩抑声声思，似诉平生不得志。

　　低眉信手续续弹，说尽心中无限事。

　　轻拢慢捻抹复挑，初为霓裳后六么。

　　大弦嘈嘈如急雨，小弦切切如私语。

　　嘈嘈切切错杂弹，大珠小珠落玉盘。

　　间关莺语花底滑，幽咽泉流冰下难。

　　冰泉冷涩弦凝绝，凝绝不通声暂歇。

　　别有幽愁暗恨生，此时无声胜有声。

　　银瓶乍破水浆迸，铁骑突出刀枪鸣。

　　曲终收拨当心画，四弦一声如裂帛。

　　东舟西舫悄无言，唯见江心秋月白。

　　沉吟放拨括弦中，整顿衣裳起敛容。

　　自言本是京城女，家在虾蟆陵下住。

　　十三学得琵琶成，名属教坊第一部。

　　曲罢常教善才伏，妆成每被秋娘妒。

　　五陵年少争缠头，一曲红绡不知数。

　　钿头云篦击节碎，血色罗裙翻酒污。

　　今年欢笑复明年，秋月春风等闲度。

　　弟走从军阿姨死，暮去朝来颜色故。

　　门前冷落车马稀，老大嫁作商人妇。

　　商人重利轻别离，前月浮梁买茶去。

　　去来江口守空船，绕船月明江水寒。

　　夜深忽梦少年事，梦啼妆泪红阑干。

　　我闻琵琶已叹息，又闻此语重唧唧。

　　同是天涯沦落人，相逢何必曾相识。

　　我从去年辞帝京，谪居卧病浔阳城。

　　浔阳地僻无音乐，终岁不闻丝竹声。

　　住近湓江地低湿，黄芦苦竹绕宅生。

　　其间旦暮闻何物？杜鹃啼血猿哀鸣。

　　春江花朝秋月夜，往往取酒还独倾。

　　岂无山歌与村笛，呕哑嘲哳难为听。

　　今夜闻君琵琶语，如听仙乐耳暂明。

　　莫辞更坐弹一曲，为君翻作琵琶行。

　　感我此言良久立，却坐促弦弦转急。

　　凄凄不似向前声，满座重闻皆掩泣。

　　座中泣下谁最多？江州司马青衫湿。

KL..part 3

As it was a weekend (saturday), there's traffic jam...and May hated it..her father hated it..everybody hated it...which made me very guilty for asking too much of her...the whole "trip" back took about 2 hours..i think..

Everything's back to normal as soon as we reached her home...Have some chatting again with May..nice conversation...Rommel slept early...haha..This time i slept comfortably as we changed position...better in MANY ways..haha...

The next morning..have nasi lemak as breakfast again...with kari sotong and fruits...May bought us 12.30pm tickets...and so we went back to Melaka...end of trip..

Nice trip overall..really saw a lot of things...experienced a lot of things...good..and bad...^_^"

KL..part 2

2nd Day..

Can't sleep well during the 1st night..and so...woke up at 8 to have a pee..then went back to sleep...everybody woke up at 11...when reimie's gf called..

We have nasi lemak as breakfast..with fruits and kari sotong..made me thought about my family..^_^"..

I saw May's piano..then have some fun with it..haha..i still can play some pieces...^_^"..We went to 1 utama...with May's friend..have some window shopping..and i bought a shirt from Radioactive..cute shirt..'cause there's a rabbit design on it..haha..

The sad part of this trip is just about to begin..as reimie asked May wether she can fetch her girlfriend..which is a no 'cause there's no more space for her...Everybody's worrying about it..which i think was really sad...Nevertheless..Have lunch at Shakey's Pizza..The pasta sucks..T_T..

We went back a little late..and May's starting to have a very bad mood..when she's driving she's a totally different person...fuyo...didn't talk with her along the way..which i think really bothered me and her...I hate being passenger to cars...'cause i'll be having headache...that's another reason for me to keep quiet...

Later we went to Time Square while May, with her family went to have some kind of reunion dinner with her grandfather...So..Rommel and I went to Sungei Wang, Lowyat...Wah..Lowyat..really is a crowded place..each floor is specific to a certain product it seems..the 2nd floor's for handphones while the 3rd is for PCs...really a lot of people..and everybody there spoke Cantonese..which made me uncomfortable...as i can't speak Cantonese..

Met with Reimie with her girlfriend at McD of Sungei Wang..Soon we have to go back..as May's dinner was sooner to end then expected..It seemed to me that the WORST part of the trip begins from there..

KL..part 1

Went to KL last friday with Rommel and Reimi...Let start this story then..Actually i'm doubting this trip would be a happy trip...i'll explain my doubt later...

1st Day

We started out on 11.30am..after our physics tutorial...gerard fetched us to Melaka Central..with irene...I was so tired on the bus..slept..and..as usual...got a headache...T_T..

We reached KL about 2pm..then we went to Rommel's auntie's house..have some rest there..Her auntie's flat is quite small..just enough for a 4 member family i guess..Met her cousin Michelle..

Later we went to meet Reimie's girlfriend and her sister and her friend..Have lunch at LOT 10..the food sucks..to make things even worst...we didn't have any conversation with reimie's gf and her sister...There's a feel that we're not from the same class of people..it may be stereotyping but i'm not used to have famous people talking to me..

Well..after lunch reimie followed her gf while Rommel and I went to Time Square..Such a big place..and expensive..haha..We just walked around and finally spending most of our time at Borders..a famous bookstore...

found some of Jimi's book there...but it seems that the book that May liked was not there..a little dissapointed..I'm thinking of giving that book to her as a gift..

Nontheless..have a great time there...the bookstore really is very spacious..not like popular or MPH..the things there seems very "stuffed"...

Later we went to watch Narnia..OMG...what a dissapointment...the movie is a bit naive in my opinion..not strong enough to express what it wants to express...a little lame...the fighting sucks...the graphic sucks..the storyline..linear..If you want to watch it..beware...

after watching..to have a walk at Bintang Walk..a lot of promoters..especially the foot massaging...almost blocked my way..then...passed by quicksilver boardriders club..Just as we are about to walk in the door warden stopped us..stating that there's a private function going on...any person without the invitation letter is not allowed inside...What a bummer..

But that later thought about Yuki..haha..he's going to quicksilver too...and he got invitation letters...hehe...and May's coming too..^_^...All the items there has discounts..at most 50 percent!!!But..can't find something suitable...so..T_T...didn't buy anything...

May suggested we stay at her place..so...after leaving Quicksilver went to take our luggage..and...off we go to May's house...at Klang...

Her father seldom talked..in fact none to us...and her mom just asked us some questions and that's it..the atmosphere was quiet..our worst dream came true...are her parents mad or something??

Whoa..her house was..artistic...every corner of her house was of chinese paintings and 书法...i'm impressed...we stayed in her sister's room..her sister is in JB..look a lot like May..

After settling down..Have some chat with May..talked about many things..

I can't sleep..the bed is obviously too small for 3 fully grown young adults..rommel on my left and reimie on my right..i'm like a sandwitch..to make things worse...rommel was talking in his dream and reimie's snoring..Arg!!!!

Shitty Week...

This week is the most "exciting" week in Melaka..You know why? First..I got a bad result for my midterm..which i thought i can do better..Then..Fees...RM1811.25...Damn MMU..two months of study = RM1811.25...And last..is the equation of stupidity....

Bad Result = RM1811.25

How sad was I..how dissapointed was I...how stupid was I...how lazy was I...how crazy was I...how hardworking was I...how playful was I...how bad was I...how good was I..how happy was I...how tired was I...how sweet was I..

Try adding all that emotions and feelings together and mixed it in 5 seconds..And if you can do that..Then you know how shitty this week will be for me...

Who knows my pain..No one..

I just want to shout out loud :"!@#$%%^&*^*&^%@^$!#%!^@$^&#!$#$!!!!!!!!"

My 4th week of MMU..

Oh man..i didn't wash my clothes for a week..again...saturday will be a busy day..haha..got tons of clothes waiting for me..

Seems to me that i've neglected the calculus..didn't touch it for a week already...coz of physics i guess...the assignment..the tutorials..wah..another weight worth a TON i have to bear..

Played Football with Reimi them on Wednesday...quite nice..i scored twice! Haha..altough this is my first game since like..6 months ago...hehe...

Got a little confused about my feelings..but..i already figured out what to do..^_^"...

Well..i've decided not buy a new graphic card..coz i think i do not need it..yet...i've still got like 4 weeks to survive in Melaka..

Oh my...what a day...happy day..sad day..bittersweet..^_^"

Y'day was my physics midterm test..and..holy sh**...made a careless mistake..as well as forgetting some formulas...T_T..quite dissappointed 'cause i've done my revision i think should be sufficent..but..alas..it's not. So..have to work harder...but well..i've no regrets nevertheless...i've tried my best..hehe..^_^"

After the test I went to have supper with may..rommel..yar ling..soket..reimi..haha..nice..talked so many things about our childhood..the cartoons particularly..doraemon..ultraman..masked rider..cybercops..little lulu..popeye..power rangers..and many many many more...haha..nice moments...

Before talking with may and rommel a few days ago..i've thinking about giving up..but..after having a pep talk..or sort of..with them..i think i should have at least do something before i make any plan of giving up...haha..thanks May...

I'm going to buy my first ever graphic card of my 18 years of life late in the afternoon today!! Haha..hope i bought the right thing with a bargain..finger crossed...

Aiyo..assignment not yet do...hmm..Got to have a trip to the library again i guess..